2015: The Paul Awakens

You’re not going to believe this, but I felt that Facebook’s “Your Year In Review” did not present me with an adequate representation of my year’s experiences that I wanted to share with everyone.

“Paul, it’s for fun. Its not supposed to be accurate.”

“Paul, it’s a free social media platform, what more do you want from it?”

“Paul, are you a bit of a narcissist?”

Yes, yes, and a resounding YES, internal voice (and everyone reading this)!

But, this is my site that I pay $20 a year for, and you chose to not hide me on Facebook/Twitter/Livejournal, so here we are.

One big obvious thing I did this year was that I ran. You all know this. Its an unescapable part of me now. I run. I tell people about it. If you feel I do so too much, I’m sorry, but a huge part of what keeps me doing it is sharing that experience. It makes me accountable. Or at least in my head it does. I’m training for the New York City Marathon now, after qualifying this past year by completing New York Road Runner’s 9+1 program. I did a lot of running, and I’m going to do a whole lot more. Running has given me something I didn’t know I was missing, and I’m grateful for it. Thanks to my mother-in-law Michele for getting me into it, thanks to my wife Chrystal for supporting me through every run, and thanks to everyone who bears with my non-stop running talk/posting.

Another big to-do from this year was that I completed a Certificate in Marketing program at NYU’s School of Continuing Professional Studies. Taking these classes has really rounded me out professionally, and given me a lot of organizational tools to better do my job. I also got to meet a ton of interesting people from all over the world, as NYU draws in a lot of international students. I didn’t expect that, nor did I expect to enjoy going back to school so much. Seriously. I still have nightmares about needing to take one more English class to finish high school and/or college, but I enjoyed the heck out of this. Thanks to Justin and to Nice Shoes for putting me on this path.

Completely Normal, the feature film that I cowrote, made its way through a number of festivals this year. Congrats to Rob, Andrew, Molly, Seth, Jenny, Geneva, Whitney, Jim, all the various Chris’s (there’s about 18 of them altogether ), Harnick, Yost, Mike, Heather, Danielle, David, and anyone else who I’m missing who made this awesome film. Collaborating on this film was a unique experience that I didn’t fully appreciate as it was happening, and I’m incredibly grateful to have been a part of it. I can’t wait til everyone can see what we all made, and a shoutout once again to Rob for being the unstoppable force (he’s a directorial Juggernaut!) that made it happen.

I have also realized that I’m pretty damn self-absorbed.

I have been extremely fortunate throughout my 31 years on this Earth, and if I’ve learned anything in this past year, its that I’ve taken a lot, and I haven’t given much back. I’m not talking about money. I’m talking about time. About listening. About helping/volunteering/service. Whatever actions I can take to put a little bit back into the world. I can be a better husband, son, brother, nephew, uncle, cousin, friend, coworker, neighbor. I can be a better Paul.


I know that writing this very post is inherently selfish. I want to feel better about myself. But this is the world we live in, where selfish thoughts are posted publicly on a regular basis. I’m seriously going back and forth on whether to hit publish. But I’m going to. I need this out there to hold myself accountable. So that a year from now (or a few months from now when I google myself), I can check to see if I’ve put anything positive back into the world.



By pauldekams

Paul DeKams is a socially awkward malcontent working in marketing in New York City. So, yeah, he’s a writer. He's written a few independent film projects, written a blog about comics, and even has an embarrassing Live Journal you can find if you try really hard.

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